Where Meadows
Were Rough
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When I was a child, I dreamt of becoming an engineer where I build infrastructures and facilities built to support the needs of Filipinos. As I grew up, I admired the great impact of teachers, and I wished to be one of them too. But in 12th grade, technology challenged my curiosity, it sparked a dream of becoming a computer programmer one day. Later, my passion shifted towards multimedia arts, and creativity became my compass in this journey.
Those are just the tiny dreams I have once wished to live. Did any of it come true? No, because sometimes, to land on the right track, pathways were rough. So, I left my dreams from some corners of the road to allot a space for realistic aspirations, for my own sake and for a smooth travel to my dream destination.
These shifting dreams were like my stepping stones scattered across a river, some strong and firm, while others are slippery like the algae that represents my past mistakes. One flaw is that the person I am today is not thrifty, I buy whatever I want and easily persuaded by marketing tactics. Those mistakes became obstacles, wrecking some of the stepping woods I needed to cross bridges. Yet, in every misstep, there are new ways to get back on track. I discovered new stones that leads to a new pathway. Although they are more challenging than a wood, I still prefer exciting paths rather than a walk in the park.
Amidst these dreams, a part of my heart always longed for something more personal. My mother and grandmother have been overseas workers, tirelessly striving for our family’s future, while my father was often away from home for work. This left just my siblings and I at home. Unlike when we were young, we don't need to be alone in a meadow of thorns, because they remove it for us. This separation with my parents creates a yearning for love. It is a wish to have us all complete around all sides of the dining table once again, where we share meals, stories, and laughter like a normal family have.
Now, I am certain I walk the right path. The red carpet at the end signifies not just an arrival or a finish line, but a celebration of my growth and perseverance. In the end of the road, there's an Oscars trophy, which is a symbolism for my dream of becoming an internationally-known film director. I see myself sitting at both the starting point, filled with endless hope and innocent dream, and at the endpoint, living my dream as a film director. Alongside this, I will continue to enjoy my hobbies of programming, freelancing, and 3D modelling which are a powerful strength I harness to my benefit since day one.
Looking ahead, I aspire to pursue my own "The Road Not Taken"—by earning a computer science degree. This path, though different from my current artistic pursuits, it represents an exciting challenge and a testament to my love for continuous learning.
And on a lighter note, if there’s one more thing I wish for the future, it’s to have healthy hair again. No more hair bleaching adventures—because let’s be honest, the hair on the person I am today has seen better days. Hehe!
Amidst these aspirations, there’s a simpler wish I really want to happen and that is to have a pug, the cutest puppy I've ever wanted. I think my first salary will be that gift to myself. Regardless of these dreams, my deepest wish remains in heart for my family. To gather once more around a warm table where everyone is complete with packed stories from their own rough meadows.
Afterall, in the meadows where the path was rough, I found not just the dream destinations but the humbleness of life. It might throw you stones and disrupt your journey, but remember that life is supposed to be hard in the first place. You just need to look at a different field of meadows and you will understand that meadows were never rough, you're just afraid to take a detour in life.
